What is it that people see in me that makes them think I am capable of more than I am currently doing?
I feel like I’m being maneuvered and shifted again, and that doors are slowly sliding open to give access to things that I “shouldn’t” have yet. I am ambivalent about the situation… Or something like “ambivalent”. Excited, uncomfortable, nervous, proud, something.
The problem is, I don’t see how people would consider me for bigger things when I am not handling well what I have. Hence the above question. I almost think it’s a matter of itty bitty facets of my life appearing to measure up, while I hide the parts that aren’t. A “keep it together” type of persona. But then I fall apart so easily–how do others not in my inner circle not notice?
On top of that, I’m not comfortable discussing the issue with two folks who would help me figure things out. Sigh.