I hate it when I’m having an [extremely odd] conversation with a friend and the mere subject matter makes me feel like I’m betraying another friend, although there is absolutely nothing being said that could possibly even seem to be related except in the convoluted contours of my mind.
I want to take Diff. Eq. II just so I can learn about these convolutions (?) and transformations that could have been so useful in Probability this term…
I also want to see if I’ll enjoy doing them as much as I’ve enjoyed doing other DE things. So I’m a “plug and chug” girl. What else explains why I’m doing so poorly at both DISCO and Probability? “Keep it simple, stupid” and all that. Because I think I am very much hitting a ceiling in my intelligence/learning ability.
Despite my like of DE, matrices can bite my ass. Anything that actually sends me running for Maple needs to go, since my first instinct is to do it all by hand, and I end up wasting so much crucial time by getting myself lodged into an algebraic dilemma. And transformations on matrices to solve systems of equations get me lodged more than mechanical vibrations ever will.
Ah, well. Back to studying. And my odd, traitorous conversation. (Which has gotten even more odd and less comfortable as I type this.)