• Uncategorized

    Cho knows how to do it

    Because I don’t care about food, it is there when I want it, I don’t crave it and want it and think about it. Since I can have everything, nothing is that important. I don’t need to eat a whole cake because I can eat a whole cake every day every meal if I want and I don’t care. I don’t prepare to eat because I might be hungry later and ‘they’ won’t have what I have to eat. When I am hungry, I eat. You know, that is what the weird diet is. Margaret Cho’s “Fuck It Diet“

  • Uncategorized

    A lonely journey

    My weight is something I struggle to understand and tame. It’s something I’ve been actively fighting with since my freshman year of college, and the best analogy I have for the process is trying to grab a fallen bar of soap in the shower. Sometimes you can grab on (as I did that first year), only to lose it again a moment later.

  • Uncategorized

    Four excellent things

    Four great things have happened in the last 24 hours: I got to spend all day working with Andrea on a lab report. I started a paper-and-pen journal for fitness/food/weight-loss-related matters. WO showed up while Andrea and I worked and hung out with us. He laughed. A lot. I got my advanced pilates DVDs!!!11!one! I’ve been waiting for the DVDs for over a damn week. (I passed my beginner’s DVD to Andrea. Bwua-ha-ha!) I bought the Classical Pilates Technique – The Complete Mat Workout Series, and oh, my goodness, the intermediate level whoops my ass just like I like it to be whooped. It’s going to be a minute before…